Some random thing.

Speedtest. How many characters or words you could type in one minute. Mine is damn slow la please. omg.

first try : 57 words
second try : 57 words
third try : 59 words
fourth try : 62 words
fourth try : 64 words
final try :

65 words

Speed test

damn. I'm slow.

Anyways, my room mates for kismis stay will be : Kuong Lim, Zhi Liang and Shaun Leong. Ha! Looks like I'm sleeping alone. Okay, shopping time and more things need to be bought. Food, clothes and stuffs. Heh! Woots. Can't wait for it.

Random Pictures!







I know I know. "That's a Super Ugly 1-1-1". HAHA! Thanks arh Shane.
But hey, it was pretty fun, you know. Just to destress and stuffs. RAWR!
I want to fly more pleaseeee..... *whines

Labels: Cheerleading, Flying, Happy, Random, stunting

Exams are finally over! *phew One load off my shoulder already. Though it's only TWO papers but then, they are KILLER papers. It's like Amaths and... Amaths?! *urr.

Rawr. Anyways, I'll be "away" for Magnum's Hostel Stay from the 3rd March onwards. National Cheerobics has been brought forward to the 16th March and it will be at Kallang Leisure Park. Time is to be announced soon but I supposed that it will be around after lunch time or so, like last year. Rawr. Jiayou Magnum Force. One chance. ((:

Anyways, I'm planning to take my grade 6 theory, after a reasonable pass in my grade 5. I've decided to bring my music grades up another level. Well, I supposed I'll be under Mr Richard Png again. Also, I'll be taking my practical grades in Percussion as well. Well, to start a PROPER tutoring/teaching job in BDAS/WBAS/Bandworld, I think I really should get a Certificate. Well, it's something that I should have other than going for my coaching cert. Oh wells, most probably I'll be taking it with Mai and her ben&terry. I'm gonna scout out for my grade scores and stuffs like that.

Yesterday, finally I had a combine with Philharmonic Youth. It didn't had much feelings and a sense of security in music as compared to how I felt the last concert. Perhaps it was Mr David Glosz who took us at that point of time. Well, Mr Leonard Tan will be taking us really really soon! I can't wait for it though. Another dream of mine will be accomplished! Oh wells, I played with the Philwinds last night. Had combine practice with them, and the feeling is WAY different from sws. I shan't say any other comments. HA!

Yup, Comworks is like during Hostel stay. Darn, that means I have to bring all my "barang-barang" for kimis. I seriously, don't know how many bags will I bring to the hostel. I want to know who are my room mates *Whines.

1) 8th March - Comworks (Ulu Pandan CC)
2) 16th March - Cheerobics `08 (Kallang Leisure Park)
3) 30th March - Vivocity Public Perf
4) 13th April - Beautiful Sunday (Esplanade)
5) 17th April - Arts Festival (Singapore Conference Hall)
6) 28th May - Youth Concert (Unknown)
7) 12th - 13th July - National Band Competition (Victoria Concert Hall)

My SCHEDULE for the whole SIX months. I'm booked. Confirmed and will be playing. Haha! So, C'mon down and support me and my friends. (:

Random.
Photos of IMM dinner games!

Me, Mai and Huici. Had games on the Playground, Stupid Pictionary. Had fun in Daiso! Seriously, if only Daiso is HUGE and HUGE-R, we can have more fun in that place! I ALMOST lost my digicam in there. Was pretty scared to death and you know how I found it? It was INSIDE my POCKET!


presenting
the Two top ranking UGLY AUNTIES.


Yup, Andra send me this song. If you know my life, you'll know this is true. Enjoy.
Thanks Andra, btw. This song, really really meant a lot.

Don't Judge This Book

Labels: Band, emo, IMM, Magnum Force, SWS, Updates

Sometimes I'm proud of who I am. Sometimes I'm not proud of who I am.
I seriously need to get answers and solutions to almost all my problems in life.
To be honest, I have a wonderful family with an almost wonderful life. But thoughts came into my mind, thinking whether I'm like any other teenage kid in any polytechnic. Yes, all of us have problems and questions every single day. Some may be solved, some can't be solved (maybe the solution is not there yet). But typical questions will often be asked or said by us, eg. Why I can't I have a better life? or I wish I could have his/her life etc etc. Yes, that I agree sometimes but at some point, I'm quite happy with who I am and what I do.

I have a wonderful family. Dad, Mum, Three brothers and myself. The youngest I am, obviously.
Being the youngest in the family, has a lot of advantages. It's like the elder brother will usually do all the things for the younger ones. eg. payment for something. The elder ones too, are the ones holding the responsibility to take care of the younger ones ; me. Well, income wise for me is going quite well. Well, I've seldom declare myself broke (not lately) because the five of them will provide me financial aid, at any point of time. That's a good thing, I suppose. Because my dad told me this;

"Your responsibility is to make sure that you study hard and do something that you love/like, moulting your talents and be somebody. Anything related to financial aid, just ask."

Well, to be honest. Having the financial aid from my family is a good thing. But it's like, nothing beats the love of a family. My dad once said that "I'm doing all this because we all love you". He said that but I don't feel it at all. Everyone's busy with their own things; working and working. When I told them that I want a holiday, just for us to relax and be together. Their response will be that they have no time and they're free. That's why, I'm keeping myself pack most of the time, with cheerleading and also band practices. I've not been on a holiday, since sec 2. My first time, on an aeroplane to other countries was with Magnum, to Thailand, not my parents. We barely had meals at home together. Everbody's doing their own thing at home. Sometimes, it's too quiet. The only thing, that to show me that they care is when I'll ask for something, they'll give.

I really wish that I could be someone else for one day. Seriously! Being too happy as a teenager, is really really a bad thing. Just to let you guys know, I have no working experience at all. My parents disallow me from working, just to let me concentrate on my studies. My dad said "Why do you want to work? We earn quite a lot and are you telling me that it's not enough?" I don't know. I felt like doing something I think that's needed to do. I'm not like other people; I'm not as talented as other people. I'm in the reserve team in Magnum. It goes to show that I'm not as good as the rest in Magnum. I failed the coaching exam. Maybe I'm not really a cheerleader material. Oh, I'm not as good in my band too. Playing in Philyouth or Singapore Wind Symphony doesn't prove anything at all. It's the talent that people see and what's inside your brains that counts. I don't have my Grade 5 or 8 Certificate yet. I can't work along the music scene nor the arts scene because I don't have a Certificate! Yes, I think I agree to what Serena said during the bonding camp. I don't just keep saying that I will do it or I have done it. It's the outcome that matters. Show to others that I've done something about it. Well, in other words don't procrastinate. That's one thing, I love to do.

What I feel is that, my body is turning 20 this year but my mind still feels it's sec 5 where somethings don't really matter at all. I don't know. I feel, it's almost time where I think I need to decide things for myself. I'm heading to NS like in a year or two. I have not plan for my future after poly. What am I going to do? Work? as what?! Engineer? or a slacker? or Pursue my studies overseas? Majoring in? Music? Performance? Teaching? or Engineering?! no way.

I seriously need a way out of this matter. I'm in need of someone who can answer things to my doubts. I don't want to keep following other people's decision and keep siding their opinion. It's time where I should have my own say. I've once thought that I should have left cheer behind a long long time ago, but it's the people I'm inspired who makes me stay. I've always try my best to make myself feel at home, though sometimes I don't feel it. Talking now, have been a difficult task for me. The only thing I can do now, is just Cheer them on, just like any cheerleader. A Cheerleader who will cheer for other cheerleaders. I guess I'll forever be just a catcher. I don't know.

I'm just telling the truth and what I am feeling. Not everything in this world, has the answer to my questions and doubts. But there are clues and hints in this life that will sometimes lead you to the answer. Those are the clues and hints, that I'm currently seeking for the past few years. I really need them. I don't want to be a happy kid always. Being too happy in life, will make that person sad/depressed. LIKE ME!

I want to be somebody I'm not for one day. God, please.
I don't want to be ordinary! I want to be EXTRA-ORDINARY!
oh,
happyCNY to all.




i'minneedofsomeonetobewithnow.

Labels: emo, life, Random