Let Imaginations Take Flight.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006,

"Live life to the fullest"

Haiz. It's been one month being a polytechnic student. Who says poly students relax their butts off during the whole three years?! I'm practically dying slowly till the end of the semester. There's a lot of things still on hold. Gosh! Someone, please motivate me to MUG again. Common test will commence next week and I'm busy playing around and practically socialising in school instead of studying!

Anyways, quite a lot of things occured since my last post which is 18 days ago. Today is the May 31st. Okay, that was so random. Anyways, I think I commited too much on certain stuffs until I do not have time for myself and my studies. Oh well, my passion for performing arts is still there and I will pursue on in Music. Speaking of music, my Theory exam is coming in a 2 or 3 months? I'm quite ready for it though. I almost got a distinction my last test and I'm both happy and disappointed at the same time. This is because I did not put in my best effort. Oh well, work harder Fir!

On the 20th May, MILLENIANS GATHERING! Not all I supposed. It was only 3/5 of the PAE millenians who went back. Yes, I'm missing everyone of them. Hugging here and there. Of course, we met new people too and made new friends. Anyways, Zee was wearing the Spongebob Mascot which seriously was ****! Whoopz. It was smaller in size and shorter compared to the one Alcor's team made during the PAE period. I think the size of spongebob suits her because of Zee having short height. Lol! She will kill me if she sees this. I miss her truckloads! Met a lot of people there and Lavanya's gang including those people who I assume were in Phecda 3 performed twice, doing the same Phecda dance. It was pretty hilarious to see them dance. It was super cute, I say. I got myself two Mi Carnival T-shirt. It was only like $2 each. Heekz. Gosh, I miss them truckloads! Seriously, Ervyn, Oliver, Adam, Yan Zu, Timothy, Sahira, Qazim, Hilmi, Lava, Amirul, Keng Liang, Jeremy, Claris, Zee, Nabila, Shafiq, Firdaus, Farhana, Saifuddin, Nicholas, Wee Chee, Louissa, Esther, Daphne, Fairuz, Yazid and ALL my millenian friends. The list is so long so I don't bother typing it out. Hekz.

Competition and concerts coming. One thing competition and concert needs is commited and hardworking people! I don't think I want to play or put in effort into something that I feel I could not work with. I, sometimes just can't work with some people. The way they think about thinks is seriously illogical. I ask you guys, would you ask someone to go somewhere when he or she seriously do not want to go there? and would you force someone to go somewhere where he or she have to pay a high price just to see u perform once on stage? I think this is seriously illogical. How can tickets sales be behind schedule. They are the one performing for the concert, why should we help to sell tickets. It's their concert, why should we ask our friends to go support them though we're only playing one song! I think the people who plan the ticket sales are not thinking straight. You can't expect to have a full house concert unless you guys are super professional bands like Philharmonic Winds. It's a matter you guys can put in effort playing a decent concert and making them enjoy the music rather than having a full house concert with INSINCERE souls sitting down listening to NOISE rather than music. I think i rather play in an empty hall whereby we produce Nice and Soothing Music with suspense and story. You should be selling more tickets since you guys are playing more pieces than us. I don't think my friends wish to WASTE $12 just to see me play one bloody song. Gosh, this is seriously so immature. Seriously! Anyways, at least I have to put in some effort so I have to do this.

Sembawang Wind Orchestra.
17 June 2006, 7.30pm
Victoria Concert Hall.
$12.
Repetoires : If I tell you, no point. Clue: Soloworks?

Happy now? Bloody irritating. Thank goodness I am leaving this after the NBC in July.

Anyways, back to my concert post. I'm having a lot of concert to go or perform. Come support me Okay?

1st - Sembawang Symphonic Winds on 17 June at Victoria Concert Hall. $12
2nd - Singapore Wind Symphony on 9th July at Esplanade. FREE!
3rd - Jubilant : Combined Ai's band and choir on 13th July at Victoria Concert Hall. $10
4th - Sembawang Symphonic Winds either on 15-25 July at Victoria Concert Hall.*Competition*
5th - Singapore Youth Wind Symphony on 12 August at Ulu Pandan CC. Price TBC.
6th - Sembawang Symphonic Winds on December ? at ? . Price TBC.

See! How busy I am?! A lot of commitments needed for all this concerts. I myself is shocked to see my schedule to be so packed.

Anyways, Try outs for national team for Magnum force was on monday. Guess what? Did I get into Nationals? What you guys think? You think I'm in? Hakz, obviously not. I'm disappointed in myself though. I got bloody 20 points and the highest marks obtain by a male freshie is 49 marks. Oh well, I'm not nationals. Quite happy and disappointed in it but seriously, I can commit more in my studies and of course, my passion for music and performing arts. Come support me Okay doodettes?!

Okay, enough. Sorry for the SUPER later post. Outs.

I'm back on track with you! =)

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Saturday, May 13, 2006,

Question yourself this :

"Have I ever felt so happy that no one could even realise when I'm down?"

Well, I think it is just a simple fact of whether you want people to know exactly what is going around in your circle of life. Yes, to most it is quite important to let other know how you really feel about certain things and what are your opinion but nonetheless, there are the minority who usually hides their opinion which they know might really hurt others. Only for a certain situation whereby he realise that he could not take it anymore and he will just burst infront of anyone who pisses him off.

Oh well, I think that's them but not me. I sometimes realise that I rarely get sad, I mean seriously sad other than cases only some knew about it. Yes, I'm really a happy boy. Always smiling wherever I go and I will never stop b*tching. That's me if you guys do not know about it. I'm those kind of person that if I really hate that person, I will never stop bitching about him/her to my friends so, do not be enemies with me instead let us be friends! Lol. Okay. Enough bullshit.

Serious talk now. Anyways, I have been kind off bad to some people because I did not keep my words. First thing, I am apologising to all friends in Sports Camp especially my Kaia-ns that I could not make it for the Dinner and Dance tonight. I am really sorry. I'll make it up to u guys okay? Maybe we will go on our own trip to Da Vinci Code or some Ice-cream buffet. Heekz. Second thing is that I am apologising to Jonathan Chia for not being able to be there for his 18th birthday party. I am really sorry John, I know you wished for me to be there for your party but I'm like away from Singapore. Sorry John. I will make it up to you somehow. Sorry people!

Anyways, I am so packed with assignments now. Monday, Wednesday, Friday are like Magnum Force days. Also, Cabbing Nights. Monday and Wednesday is like KAP supper day. Friday is Al-Ameen day. Tuesday is My Project Pool day. Thursday, Saturday and Sunday are like my BanD Practices. See how packed my schedules are! Oh gosh. I have two IS module projects, tonnes of online assignments not handed in and gazillion hand written assignment to hand up by the end of this month! Heekz. I have received this warning letter from Ngee Ann saying that I have been skipping lessons for one of my lectures and if my attendance is below 80%, I will be debarred from the examination. I mean seriously, they totally got that information wrong! I have never skip lecture before! I am such a nice, innocent boy and I got a warning letter?! I'm so going to screw the person's butt with my dad's chainsaw! Lol! Okay, that was bullshit.

About my IS module project, my group is like doing a project "codename: Homo-..." Well, Homo can mean any word that has homo- in it. Yes. My group is doing about homosexuality and how they came about. Well, I hope we are not hurting anyone. The thing is now, we need to interview real homo guys and girls to listen to their opinion and stuffs. Also, we need people to give opinion about them. So, if you guys wish to get interviewed. Find Fifi okay? I thought maybe I should interview the gay couple in Ngee Ann. Oh well, hardly get to see them in school anyways. So, I don't bother about it. I think I shall interview like 4 guys and 4 girls. Hmm, we shall see.

Eh, did u guys know that there's four guys in Np usually amuses me? Firstly, Dedric. He's damn one of a kind bitch. I still remember during FOC when I was about to sabotage him when he was asleep by drawing on his legs and he woke up. Then, I pretended to be sleeping beside him. He was quite pissed off with it. He get sexcited when we, magnum force guys get our balls kicked. I'm so going to screw his ass off with my dad's chainsaw. Lol! Chenfeng, another bitch. Keep teasing me about being in Magnum Force and all. I did not know he really mugs! I thought he's those type of slackers in school! Okay. Ruzz, the guy who never stops with this FIFINA thingy. Damn funny but annoying can? Well, to me he looks like 15 due to his dimples and his bracey smile *no offence ruzz*. Of course, BRYAN! That FIFINA creator! I do not know where he came up with that name. Just because I was a SEXY mermaid during the camp and how gay I acted back then. Plus, he's always amused by Magnum force guys who get their balls kicked while doing stunts. Yes bryan, Hang Them High! Get it? Lol. Also, he get sexcited when we throw girls who he claimed bitches up and down. Lol! I've given him this name called Bryanina. I do not know why though. Anyways, these four small boys *who are practically taller than me* are always bullying me. They too, never asked me out when they go out. How mean can they get? Oh well, bullcrap I suppose! Happy belated birddae Dedric!

I'm missing everyone! Can I go back to the past?

It's me. A bitch

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Tuesday, May 09, 2006,

Heartbroken.

One of the worse things that young teen suffers as they grow up. Being heartbroken is not all about breaking up with your current relationship partner, but sometimes it is just that you lost someone special. I just did a few days ago.

It is not as if I lost a stead or anything, I just lost a very close friend who meant so much to me. I think most of you would think that it is okay to lose a friend because I have other friends who can spend time with me, but I have known my friend for quite a long time. We both were happy together. Though we had graduated and did not contact much, I will always think about that person when I review back my past. Why am I feeling so down? Currently, my friend has just got into a relationship and now, left me behind like a rubbish. What is the worse thing that ever happen to you other than losing a very close friend? Gosh. I really need someone right now. She used to be with me whenever I need someone to talk to. Ever since he came around, no messages and no phonecalls anymore. I really miss her alot. Years of friendship has just gone to a waste just because of one stupid boyfriend of hers.

Grr. I really hate this. I think this is one of my sadening post. I do not think that much people knows when I'm sad. I just need to blog it out due to no one being here for me including her. Please, I am happy that you are with him but please, at least contact me or reply my messages. Did I ever do something wrong that i deserve this type of ignorance? I cannot take this anymore! Gosh. Hug me someone.

Congratulations.

It's you? Am I kidding myself now?

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Saturday, May 06, 2006,

One word : Stress!!

So many assignments on hold. Two weeks in poly and I am almost a rotten vegetable? Lol. Anyways, I always reach home late at night almost everyday due to training and stuffs. My body's aching too! My laptop also have not arrived yet! Gosh.

I so feel like shopping right now. I need a change in wardrobe. Heekz. Speaking of wardrobe, I met Zee last tuesday. Oh my, was she glad to see me. Of course, I myself saw the big change in her. Not in a bad way of course. Well, she accompanied me shopping and we ate at IMM. As always, she hated vegetables. Like what I always do, ask her to eat it. Oh well, I miss her! Whoopz. I enjoyed myself though. Thank you Zee!

Last thursday was my first official main band practice. Both selene and myself are officially main band members in the band! Yay! Didn't thought that we both would pass the audition. So happy for the both of us. Now, preparing for our first beautiful sunday performance this july. Come and support us okay guys?! Playing pieces like Beauty And The Beast, Pokemon, Jungle Book and stuffs. It was only me, selene and mr nazreen. Oh well, at least the parts are quite secured too. It was allright. It was like my sightreading and rythm just improved suddenly. I was happy! Of course, having mr Yusri to conduct is so cool. Anyways, Youth band practice is getting so empty. Not that I'm saying it is boring but, the songs we played feel very empty due to lacking of instruments like euphonium, clarinets and the basses. It feels like the youth band is dying and not interesting anymore. Oh well, I'm still commited to the youth band and nothing will ever change that. Hunny-stars ensemble welcomes Shawn! A new member from Temasek Polytechnic and graduated from Saint Hilda's Symphonic band! Welcome welcome! *Claps hand*. Youth wind concert coming up in July/August/September. The youth winds is open for recruitment especially for players in euphonium, tuba, clarinets and baritone saxophone. Anyone particularly interested can contact me for details okay?

You know, I had flashbacks on the days when I was in secondary school and in Millenia Institute. It was quite memorable. Those years I've mugged, slacked, work hard for ALMOST everything and of course, getting to know each and every friend that I have now. I miss the days where I got bullied and as years go by, I'm the one bullying the juniors. 5 years of working hard in the band, though not getting what I wanted was really a big memory. Two silvers for 2 consecutive syf's. Standard's improving every practice. Scoldings, running, punishments, all can not be forgotten. How I wish I was a secondary school student now and doing much better for O level and getting myself into Business Studies or Mass Communications? Regrets. Oh well, I think I'm happy the way I am now. I would not have known so many nice people if I retake my O's. Millenia. One of the best things that happens in my life. From Orion II, to 06C2, to half of Millenia. Made alot of new friends. Glad to be the lucky one who can go for 3 mths. Thanks MOE! Really made new friends. I miss them too. Oh my, I can't wait for MI Carnival on 20th May! Guys, Please go okae? I so wish to hug each and everyone of you! I miss you all can?

Ngee Ann. Magnum's training is really bugging me. Every training gets more intensive. Now I know how good they are. Even girls have to carry at least 10kg of weight. I have to increase my weight and muscles within two months if not, I'm out because I'm too light. Well, that is what they say to me. I think I'm fat! Yesterday's training was in the gym, the guys had to train up our chest and arms. Yes, I overstretched and I am not able to do stuns after that. The girls, however had to trim their tummies just to look nice in their uniform. Yesterday's training too seems so empty. Quite a number did not turn up. Some quit the team, I suppose. Some was having FOC's dinner and dance of which I did not attend. Oh well, may the last few survivors be the best. I hope I really can commit to Magnum Force. Well, it seems that quite a number are shocked that me and my friends join Magnum Force. Well, to some of them joined because of the cute and hot girls. Some join because of getting the Magnum's attire. Well to me, I joined because I love performing. Well, you guys do know that I'm in the band. Performing for quite a number of times on stage. That is why I wish to take up a Performing Sports. I like to perform on stage for people. That is just my personality. Don't get me wrong. I wonder why some guys don't join Magnum. To some, it's for sissy's/gay's. I seriously do not think so. Oh well, you never try you never know.

Anyways, Magnum's having alot of things in july. Oh man, I hope it does not clash with Sws or Ssw's practice. Ssw's having concert this 17 june, a competition this july. Sws having concert in june and in august. Aiband having concert this 13th july. Magnum's having dinner and dance this 10 june! I'm going with Chittra/Sittra. She will be my partner for that day and the theme this year is Masquerade. How cool is that? Well, can't wait.

It's you.

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