Tuesday, February 27, 2007,
I just hate today. I just hate today.
I just hate today. I just hate today.
I lost passion cos of the words you said.
I lost passion on something that I really really love.
Will I be able to get it back?
I am just a nobody.
I am just a eighteen year old boy,
with no sense of sensitivity, feelings and emotion.
You're the one who decides the fate of every single one of us.
And can replace us, in a blink of an eye.
I just hate it when you say that.
Cos the words, were too hard on me.
Why didn't you look at me while you giving your "you're so wrong" speech.
I know I am right, and I have a point.
But too bad, I'm just a player.
I don't belong there, I suppose.
No wait, in the first place,
I know it was their biggest mistake to bring me in.
Spoiling their name especially yours.
You don't feel welcome.
What about me?
Was the feeling about the same,
When I went to your territory?
The feeling of an outsider.
If you want to let it be,
Let it be.
If you want it that way,
I let it be that way.
I'm just listening to orders.
Cos you're experienced and in charge.
I'm just inexperienced.
I'm nothing, nothing at all.
Just a small piece of shit.
I'm making you happy.
No wait,
I'm making the world,
which revolve around you
happy.
I let you do,
What you want.
What's best for you.
And that place.
I lost passion, cos of the words you said.
Will I ever get it back?
I just want to let it go.
Forever.
Please.
I'm right and you're wrong.
I'm not wrong and you're not right.
What difference does it make?
((:
Disappointment, is the worse ever feeling that a guy could have.
Hating this day, from now on.
27th February 2007
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11:19:00 pm
Sunday, February 25, 2007,
March March March March.
Threemoreweeks of asessments.
Threemoreweeks to SWS Comworks `07
Threemoreweeks to Cheerobis Heats?
Fourmoreweeks to Nationals Cheerobis Competition
Sixmoreweeks to SYF 2007 : Central Judging for Concert Bands
Jia you Fir!
Perservere on ;;
Aye, Come support me on SEVENTEENMARCH can?
Abram's Pursuit.
At Dawn They Slept.
Into The Joy Of Spring.
Second Suite For Band.
7/11 Pieces, Completed and Confident about it.
Jia You!
`XIAOFI!
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11:17:00 am
Wednesday, February 21, 2007,
Results in Mid March.
Aiband's Intensive Practice in Early March.
Comworks'07 in Mid March.
Nationals in Late March.
It's all in March!
MARCH - The month of Intensity and Alertness.
It's always the call for a wake up . I don't know why but similar events kept occuring EVERY SINGLE YEAR. This time has always been a wake up call for me. I don't know what to do. I'm seriously, super unprepared. AUDITIONS is tommorrow and I'm only 75% prepared. Just hope that I will do well tommorrow.
Aiband's Syf is almost confirmed. Just waiting for the ballot date. Hope they get the first day. No chance of getting a bronze, maybe a confirmed silver or a lucky gold. Hope they will still do well. Oh gosh, I still have to tutor them! Arh.
Comworks is coming very soon. Like I've said, auditions is tomorrow and I'm so unprepared. Just do what I can tomorrow. Abram's Pursuit, At Dawn They Slept, Hymn to The Infinite Sky, The Merry Widow and Second Suite for Band. The most gerek-ked pieces ever!
Nationals is wayway soon! Magnum shall be prepared. I shall go for trainings! Magnum will win this time round. Coach's still the best la! Magnum will be numberONE. Heh ((:
Well, Pray hard and Work Hard.
Hardwork will be paid off (sentence doesn't sound right).
Wish Me luck For everything allright. ((:
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COMWORKS 2007
Selections of Secondary School Pieces
17th March 2007, Saturday
Ulu Pandan Community Building, Multi Purpose Hall Level 2
7pm, $10
Repertoire includes..
The Seventh Night of July
composed by Itaru Sakai
Mr Tan Aik Koon
Abram's Pursuit
composed by David R. Holsinger
Mr Tan Aik Koon
The Merry Widow
composed by Eiji Suzuki, arr. Franz Lehar
Mr Tay Jun Ngiap
Hymn To The Infinite Sky
composed by Satoshi Yagisawa
Mr Tay Jun Ngiap
Of Dreams and Legend
composed by Douglas Akey
Mr Ng Kok Hin
Green Hills Fantasy
composed by Thomas Doss
Mr Richard Png
Second Suite For Band : 3rd & 4th Movement
composed by Alfred Reed
Ms Jocelyn Chng
Into The Joy of Spring
composed by James Swearingen
Mr Rasul
In The Winter of 1730
composed by James Swearingen
Mr Nazreen
At Dawn They Slept
composed by Jay Bocook
Mr Faizal
Flight of Valor
composed by James Swearingen
Mr Badrul
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Regards,
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Random Note :
I miss CG! Hearts.
I miss Magnum Many many many many! Hearts.
I miss Aiband many many. Hearts.
I miss Sws Many many many. Hearts
not forgetting...
Us. From strangers to Friends. <3
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11:51:00 pm
Friday, February 16, 2007,
Valentine's Day has always been Friendship Day for me.
3Years consecutively, been spending time with my friends.
Heh, this year I went out with some of the NIE Youth winds. Heh.
No comments about the outing. Just another bitchy sunny day.
Pictures. And that's about it.
Oh, too bad. I guess I can't put pictures into my blog due to some FUGLY pictures taken on that night. Heh. TOO BAD, bitch.
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1:12:00 am
Monday, February 12, 2007,
Heh. Forget what I said in my other post. ((: I'm allright.
10th February 2006
NIE Symphonic Band feat. NIE Youth Winds
"Russian Rendezvous Op 32.1"
Our first concert together. Though only two pieces, I think we did pretty well with exceptions to the minor mistakes that we made during the concert itself. From strangers who came into the same room, with the same goal ; to make music. In the end, we did it! Great job youthwinds. Hearts many many.
The pioneers (Sinkian, Jianyu, Yee Min, Sufian, Dax and myself) all planned to be there at NIE before 1030am, just to hang out and stroll around NIE. Well, I "pangseh-ed" them and met them later in the band room about almost 1pm. I met Gena at Long John Silver, along with her band mates. Saw some of the youthwinds, while I was window shopping at Jurong Point. In the end, I bought chocolates for my section mates. Bought a little extra, because I was sure that others will want to eat the chocolate as well. (Hehe! Clever trick)
I tell you! The four of us waited for the taxi like some *@#&*@&@&$*(@!!! Seriously, we could not get a cab for like thirty minutes or so. We saw the taxi stand and we decided to take the cab somewhere else. Sianded faces of ours waiting for the cab really pissed us off. Somehow, with the help of Gena by sweet talking this malay uncle, he decided to take us to NIE. When we reached there, they already started shifting the instruments into the lorry. Well, for some reasons, those kids in the band found out something about me and they kept teasing me about it. KIDS! What do you expect?! Heh!
That's them shifting the instrument. Pin Koon. ((:
Some of the youthwinds, slacking away. Gena looked like a walking soul! ((:
That's the pioneers with Mr Kuek, our conductor discussing stuffs.
Once done with that, we board the bus and turned it into a huge market! We were so noisy. Those kids, as usual teased me and guess what? They sang a birthday song to Pinkoon when it's not even his birthday at all! Heh, reminds me of the good old MI days. Anyways, the pioneers kept disturbing the kids. So, it's like kids versus pioneers. Damn cute I tell you! Screaming and shouting! Heh. I gave my section juniors chocolate, just to make some of them jealous (and to make some of them talk to me!). We played black magic, fuzzy wuzzy, bang bang who die and singalong session. That was really crappy.
When we arrived at the conference hall, the youth winds sat down at the slopeseats and listened to the main band while waiting for our turn for the rehearsal. I gave the kids chocolate and they kept quiet from being noisy. Okay, apart of me saying "The main band will get Gold With Honour ++++" the rest pretty shut them up. Heh. Once they got the cue from Mr Kuek, off they go to tune up and warm up their instruments.
That where we put our belongings. See, damn messy!
NIE Symphonic Band having their rehearsal. BIG BAND!
When we arrived at the conference hall, the youth winds sat down at the slopeseats and listened to the main band while waiting for our turn for the rehearsal. I gave the kids chocolate and they kept quiet from being noisy. Okay, apart of me saying "The main band will get Gold With Honour ++++" the rest pretty shut them up. Heh. Once they got the cue from Mr Kuek, off they go to tune up and warm up their instruments.
That where we put our belongings. See, damn messy!
NIE Symphonic Band having their rehearsal. BIG BAND!
Okay, while the youth band was tuning outside the conference hall, I had to do my job. I took pictures of them tuning outside, some were miraculously shy! I don't know why though, just that they have to run away from me, when I want to take picture of them. Heh. Kids.
Shawn and Sufian. Yishun Sec.
Terry. Half twin!
Luqman! Trombonist.
Brasses.
Shawn and Sufian. Yishun Sec.
Dunearn Peeps.
Terry. Half twin!
Luqman! Trombonist.Anyways, the rehearsal turned out allright. Soloist were better and stuff like that. I like it when that happens. I made new friends before the concert started. Section photos and camwhoring session during the concert while the main band was performing!
NIE Youth Winds Percussionist `07.
top (from left) : Ryan, Jerry, Chong Xiang, Haris
bottom (from left) : Kang Chun, Fhaizal, Firdauz, Jianyu
Informal picture of us! Look the `em.
Thats like me. Lol!
Hmm, White face!
NIE Youth Winds Percussionist `07.top (from left) : Ryan, Jerry, Chong Xiang, Haris
bottom (from left) : Kang Chun, Fhaizal, Firdauz, Jianyu
Informal picture of us! Look the `em.Dinner time for us too! The pioneers went to LauPasat for dinner but then, some damnfreakingasseswhowanttogetcustomerssobadly came to approach us for numerous time until I myself got pissed off. In the end, some of us only ate. I ate IceKachang along with Gena. Heh. Funny. Then, dressing up time! Sufian, me, Jerry and Haris went to the staff toilet to change. Heh. Had this trying out some new stuffs. Okay, I looked weird.
Thats like me. Lol!
Hmm, White face!Concert commences! Main band performed and we, the youthwinds camwhored! Took pictures with my new friends!
Chong Xiang, ahbeng look!
Jerry, theotherhalftwinofterry.
Nasifa, theminahoftheclique.
Asriq, thatsmallboywhocrapsdamnfreakingalot.
Dan, whogottoknoweachotheratadamsparty.
Chong Xiang, ahbeng look!
Jerry, theotherhalftwinofterry.
Nasifa, theminahoftheclique.
Asriq, thatsmallboywhocrapsdamnfreakingalot.
Dan, whogottoknoweachotheratadamsparty.
Anyways, got more pictures to put up, but then lazy. Heh. Can view them up at my album collection. Oh, one more picture to go.
This is much better.
From Strangers to friends!
Wenhao, sinkian, ryan, jerry, jon, terry, nasifa, asriq
sufian, fatimah, fhaizal, fadhil and myself.
Cliques, to be reunited.
Darken Picture. After Some adjustments, and re-shoots.
This is much better.
From Strangers to friends!
Wenhao, sinkian, ryan, jerry, jon, terry, nasifa, asriq
sufian, fatimah, fhaizal, fadhil and myself.
Cliques, to be reunited.
The concert turned out was not that bad though, almost full house though. People shouting names, kids. heh! Anyways, the concert was really really great! After the concert, was lepakking season. We walked from the conference hall till esplanade. We really "relak-ed" in the center of the front porch and laughed over everything. Heh. Damn fun though.
Good job NIEYouth! More achievements in time to come.
Psst : Thanks Elai for the huge huge huge talk. Saved me somehow. ((:
Pssst: I want my CG back! Please.
Good job NIEYouth! More achievements in time to come.
Psst : Thanks Elai for the huge huge huge talk. Saved me somehow. ((:
Pssst: I want my CG back! Please.
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11:28:00 pm
First paper, flunged and completed.
Final paper, un-studied? and unprepared.
and the paper is Tomorrow.
AEL sucks big time.
I hate it.
Bladibla....
I miss them.
Magnum.
Band.
The E&Ns (Engineers&Nurses). Heh.
NIEyouthwinds.
"Anyways, sometimes it made me wonder do I have the right or ability to stay in there. I'm really heartbroken. He really made me realised how lousy I am as a musician who once had a huge passion in music. I don't really know what happened to myself and my standard of playing. Is it because I really think that I have a standard in playing. Yes, I know I'm not a perfect percussionist but I know that I have improved in my playing since I came into that band. Yes, I got beaten by a person who is younger than me, less experienced. It was really heartaching. I was told straight in my face, to let her play my parts for the concert itself. The song I was looking up to, practicing all night just to get my parts right, gone. Sometimes, maybe music won't do much for me anymore. The one thing that I loved and treasured a lot, dreamed about, perish. The feeling ain't there for me anymore. I should cut down on it, improve more and come back with a bigger passion. I don't really know how to say. Just disappointed in myself. That's all. I have no right to control or judge anyone's playing. So, I will keep quiet. I'm a lousy musician, I know."
I need a break. I don't want to perform. I want to back out from the concert. Please.
Labels: Band, Emo-ing, Ngee Ann
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12:04:00 am
Tuesday, February 06, 2007,
I hate it when this happens.
I hate it when things don't go the right way.
Is it my fault that I have to face this type of situation?
Is it my fault that I have to go through this mess?
I don't like it when people judge me, on how I do my things.
There's always a reason to why I do something in a certain way.
I will do it if it's the right thing.
I just hate it when you treat me this way.
I just hate it when you say those words to me.
I just hate it when you think wrongly of me.
I can't always be the one who caused the problems and misunderstanding.
Do that.
And you will pay.
"I just think that I should take a time off all my commitments. I just need time for myself to think everything through and what do I want in my life. Every year, the age grew but the character remains the same. Do I know what do I want in life? Fame and fortune ain't everything in life. I should explore the reality of this world, to see how everyone leads their own life. Free from all problem. I shouldn't just bother about anyone else anymore, just me. I hate it when I'm feeling this way. I love what I'm doing but it's just ...
I want the old Fir back."
` I miss Magnum. Sorry for the problems. ((:
` I love my juniors, seriously. (((:
` Hearts them many many. took off at
11:10:00 am
Saturday, February 03, 2007,
There's just a lot of things to say, just that I don't really want to talk about it.
Feelings might get hurt, bitching will take place.
I don't really like it but yeah.
I'm not going to blog another day about my Bangkok Trip.
Just go and view my picture album and be happy about it, allright? ((:
A lot of things are coming up.
Exams will be next week. Super-fied stress even though it's just only two papers!
Nationals are coming up and I bet they will do great.
Year Two will be a better year for me, I hope.
Syf is coming for my juniors. Silver will do just fine and they will be happy.
My life is in a mess. Just need to clear things and place them to the proper location.
"I hate it when the people treat us like junk. We're lousy, we know and it's a learning process. I bet all of you were like us when we were in the early years. Yes, go back there and rot! Don't even bother thinking to teach any of us. Yes, we owe u gratitude but this is not how you respect a player. So what if we're not up to your standard of playing? If we're were about your standard, you're lousy. Am I right? I don't care. I don't like the way you treat my friends and my section. I love them as much as they do. I bet they don't want to get embarrass in front of everybody. We have feelings too! Oh, you're not the chairman you hear me. Too bad if we don't have players. So what? You go and find for us la. We ourselves have our own life, unlike yours. Stop judging people by the way they do their mistakes. Everyone has their ups and down what. Maybe it was not just our day. Yes, bring her along. Get her to play for concert. She can play better than us, obviously. It's better to have us to play, rather than NONE at all. Asshole. You've no right to say things to my section. I bloody pissed with you."
Arh.
On a sight note, I love Magnum. Seriously.
Relive the happy moments.
We will win this thing guys! ((:
Labels: Band, Magnum Force, Random
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3:17:00 pm
