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Friday, August 25, 2006,

FINALLY!

Exams are over. EIGHT weeks of serious holidays, here I come! Okay, maybe I shall work for the moment. Just to help myself with some financial needs and also, help my dad a lil bit.

Final Paper was Engineering Mechanics. It was allright, seriously. I think I will do just fine for this term. *I think* Lol! I think for this Mid-Semester results, all I'm hoping for is just a pass for everything, just to make sure that I'm on a safe level. Of course, I don't think anyone of the poly students wishes to repeat any of their modules during their first semester right? Oh gosh, I'm worried. Next semester, there will be no more IAC or ComT. Erk, the subject of which I almost got an A turned out to be a D due to someone plagarising my work. Oh well, shan't elaborate further.

Anyways, training will start soon enough which is on Monday. Okay, I've been eating a lot of salad lately. It's a good thing and a bad thing though. Bad thing is, I ate it like at 10pm. It's not the right time to eat the salad as my body won't be able to digest it well. The fibres bla bla bla, you know the process of digestion don't you? It might cause me to have FLABS! Double Eew! I don't wish to have flabs and be FAT for the rest of my life. Since next week is training week, Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. I think I'll go and workout my abs out then.
Okay, I'm missing my Magnies, seriously. Jasmine, Surina, Kaiyan, Xiangying, Emily, Zi jun, Jannies, Wilson, Jen *MA BITCH*, John, Wei Cai, Eunice, Iris, Lenny and everyone in Magnum. Can't wait for training next week though. It sure be a very very busy week for me.

Next thursday, I'm going to NP band to just try out and see how the band is like. It's not that I do not want to join though, but it's because I'm having my SWS main band practices on thursday nights. Currently, I have to focus more on Magnum Force rather than Band now as I promised Lenny before to reduce my band commitments and focus on Magnum so that I can have a bright future in Magnum. Well, trainings are on every week and my band practices are only on Thursday and Sunday. So, I have more time with Magnum now. Oh well, I'm just going to see the place and how the band is like as Josh and Wee Chee is asking me to go and see. Maybe I'll go check it out cause next thursday I do not have any band practices with the main band. Can't wait though. =)

Yesterday's band practice was allright, sort of. Other than Mr Dot.Dot.Dot. trying to find fault with me and Selene which I don't think is needed by him though. Okay, I admit. Me and Selene are not trainned drummers and neither do we like to drum. So, it's partially our fault that we can't drum and I too, feel embarrased that Mr Png, who I think that has high hopes of me as a percussionist, realised that I can't play the drumset that well. Well, Mr Dot.Dot.Dot do not have to rub it in though. I seriously think that it is not necessary. I mean seriously, the whole section "pang seh" both of us and Mr png trying to do his pieces which requires a lot of drumset. It's already embarrassing and stressful enough to ask Mr Ho Kong Foo to play for us the drumset parts okay?! Two of us, running around like some guinea pigs, I think is already embarrasing enough. We admit, we're not exactly good enough like the main band percussionist. Give us some time to at least get ourselves involve in more things can, Mr "oh-so-Perfect-Conductor". We do some mistakes here and there right and like you said, it's a good opportunity for us to improve to learn from the senior batch like you guys. So, why must you teach Selene in such an irritated manner? Hakz, I wonder if you can't stand us playing like this, wonder how it will be like if we combine with the youth band this forthcoming thursday? We shall see. =)

Okay now, this might be a little long post though. So, if you wish to read on, Proceed. If not, Just tag me. I still need your opinions on Left handers though. TAG ME!

Hmm..
Two days ago, I was awaken by my alarm at about 5.30am in the morning. My mum was heading to work and I looked at her and went back to sleep. Okay, maybe it's the wrong thing to do but I didn't realise it until I had this weird dream.

The dream was like the scene that occured just now happened again. So, it was like dejavu, but only in a dream. The only difference is that, when I went back to sleep, my mum called me and asked me something that I do not know. Usually, I will get cranky if people do that to me so early in the morning. So, I walked up to her infront of the kitchen entrance and I told her "I don't know" in a irritated tone. She looked at me in a sad way, giving that "you-don't-have-to-raise-your-voice" look and straight away rushed into her room. Okay, I felt guilty after that. I tried calling her and apologise but she didn't reply me. Oh my gosh, I was seriously very guilty of raising my voice to her. I kept apologising to her, but she did not response and walked passed me with that "I'm-not-talking-to-my-son-anymore" look. Before she went shout and closed the door, I was seriously heartbroken and guilty over what I did to her. I called her again, almost breaking down into tears but this time she stopped and answered me "What is it?". I ran to her and hug her tightly and I broke down into tears. *Okay, this is embarrassing* I apologised to her and she said it's allright and everything will be okay. I woke up after that.

It made me realise that I'm lucky enough to have a Mum. Ever you guys think that, Mum's sacrifices more than your dad? It's like no matter what you do, how bad your offence is, or how embarrassed she will be if others find out that you slept with someone else, she stills ensure you that you're still her child and forever be. How fortunate is that? I mean I don't see all mums in the world will abandon the child for no reason. Even for those ex-criminals, their mums will still accept them as their own child no matter what and willing to give them a second chance to chance. I mean seriously, Mum's are the greatest creation of God. I'm not kidding. They know that somehow or rather, when we grow up, we will not be what they expect us to be but then no matter what we do and what we excel in, they're still proud of us. Have you ever thought how you were when you're still an infant? Crying all night because you can't sleep or you "Poo" or "Pee" in your diapers and you want it change immediately. Your mum usually had to force herself out from the bed, change your diapers , make you a nice warm bottle of milk and accompanies you to sleep before she can finally rest. It makes me feel that I've once been a nuisance to my mum before, not saying I'm not now though.

Well throughout the years, she will watch you grow and she will always be ther in every moment of you life. She'll be there to hold your hand in your first day of kindergaten, she'll be there when you compete in your first soccer game. She'll be there in your musical even though you're playing a role as a Tree in your kindergarten musical. She'll be there in your first day of primary school. She'll be there to protect you when you commit your first offense in primary one. PSLE results, Your first graduation day etc etc. She will be there when you get married. You can see how nice and thoughtful your mum can be to watch her own baby grow. Sometimes, I think in her mind she do not wish for us to grow up so fast and leaving her to study overseas or a new house with your life partner. To her, all this things happen within a blink of her eye. Mum are the greatest people on earth. She searched and wait for you if you're not back home after midnight. She supports you whatever you do and sometimes I think, we don't appreciate her work all this years. Sometimes, we as teenagers or young adults find them embarrassing when they talk to our friends regarding our past and stuffs like that. In the end, she's the one who remembered all the funny, cute little stuff that you did when you're young. I don't think that you realise when you're young, you used to hide under your mum's skirt when your scared of the storm. LOL!

Sometimes, I think we should appreciate our mums once in a while. Mum's won't live forever and I honestly say that we're lucky to have our mums until now. Be nice to her sometimes. Make her a cup of tea when she return from work or make sure the house is clean when she return home from work and try to make her life as peaceful as possible. Okay, sometimes we as teenagers do scold them or show a black face infront of them and making them realise their mistakes. But have you ever guys feel guilty or heartbroken when you make her feel bad about herself or felt not appreciated in whatever she do? I know I did. I mean seriously, if I made a mistakes either to my dad or my mum, I felt most guilty to my Mum for sure. In malay custom or superstition, if something bad happen to you when you're out with your friends or whoever, mums can feel it. They have this mum's feeling that her child is not allright and she will find and contact you as soon as possible. Well, it happened to me when I collapsed and blacked out in school due to dengue fever. She called and I did not answer. She rushed back home to check whether I'm home and guess what? I'm home, sleeping sickly on my bed. How cool is that?

Well, my main point is that sometimes be nice to your mum once in a while and make her feel appreciated and loved. Other than that, I Love You Mum! =)

That's my thoughts though. You guys may have something too.

I'm still FAT! TRAINING TIME!

I'm missing My Cliques.
I'm Missing Adam Kerrr, Denise Watt, Timothy Tan and Rachel Kwan!
I'm Missing MI!
I'm Missing Magnies!
I'm Missing My BandPeepz!

Other than that,

I'm missing you.
Hold my hand, hold it tight.
One day, we will make our story just right. :)

I Love You Mum!

Bitch ME`

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Wednesday, August 23, 2006,

Blogging before my Mid-semester Exam Ends!

One last paper and I'm FREE for the next SEVEN weeks. Those who wish to date me out, BOOK me first! Lol, kidding!

Exams was allright. I've been mugging/slacking for the past two nights for yesterday's paper. Yup, guess what? I was late for yesterdays paper due to waiting for a CLASSMATE of mine. Oh well, it was only for 15 mins or so. I managed to catch up some of the time I've wasted waiting for my friend. Hmm, Eltech was kind off allright but I'm not confident whether I will pass the paper or not cos I'm not very confident of that paper. Well, I hope tommorrow's paper would be allright as I think I will mug tonight like nobody's business. Tommorrow will be my last paper. Yay!

Anyways, I've been into a few movies lately. I want to watch Ghost game! Any takers? Heekz, I'm so thick skin. Oh well, BITCH me then! Hakz, things was going on fine la. Life's getting super active for me now. I have to practically like workout to prevent myself from getting FAT! I know I'm fat la but then don't have to tell me that I'm fat la hor DEDRIC?

"-=[FiR FiR]=- *Loving Ssw And SwS* I'm A Certified he-bitch*! Fifi's a Nice BITCH right?! -=[BatoNBoY]=- says:
im on diet
-=[FiR FiR]=- *Loving Ssw And SwS* I'm A Certified he-bitch*! Fifi's a Nice BITCH right?! -=[BatoNBoY]=- says:
haah
your blue eyes kills ♥ says:
haha fat bitch
-=[FiR FiR]=- *Loving Ssw And SwS* I'm A Certified he-bitch*! Fifi's a Nice BITCH right?! -=[BatoNBoY]=- says:
haha
-=[FiR FiR]=- *Loving Ssw And SwS* I'm A Certified he-bitch*! Fifi's a Nice BITCH right?! -=[BatoNBoY]=- says:
SHUT UP LA!
-=[FiR FiR]=- *Loving Ssw And SwS* I'm A Certified he-bitch*! Fifi's a Nice BITCH right?! -=[BatoNBoY]=- says:
dun call me FAT CAN!
-=[FiR FiR]=- *Loving Ssw And SwS* I'm A Certified he-bitch*! Fifi's a Nice BITCH right?! -=[BatoNBoY]=- says:
im not fat
-=[FiR FiR]=- *Loving Ssw And SwS* I'm A Certified he-bitch*! Fifi's a Nice BITCH right?! -=[BatoNBoY]=- says:
=("

I just have to workout more and DIET more! NO MORE CHOCOLATE and ICE-CREAM for me! I've promised myself that I want to grow bigger in size and lighter in weight! Hakz, wonder how that will happen? Oh well, LENNY! train me la! PUSH ME HARDER CAN?! I feel so pampered by eating too much food. I just wished my food is delivered to the people in Africa though! Ain't it true? Singapore has TOO MUCH food! Should donate some to us. When we request for food, we want to eat a lot. We intend to take in a lot of food and when we will have a lot of leftovers and throw it away. This usually happens during buffet. I think we are damn "KIASU". Seriously, I think we have this mindset that if we go buffet, we must eat as much as we can in the shortest possible time. Hakz, buffet are meant to be eaten slowly. We should savour every moment. I mean the food that you want to eat will be served at the buffet table everytime it finishes. I don't think it will run out of stock unless that food is superbly nice and expensive. I think we should slow down in our movements in almost everything and live the lives to to the fullest. Getting the job done, getting to work on time, enjoying the days with your love ones, eating and even a relationship with someone. Don't rush into things. Okay, you know what, I'm going out of point. Hakz. Doesn't matter.

Okay, Concert with Clementi Town Alumni was superb. But performing for a concert where no one knows you is kind off saddening. Imaging the crowd shouts your friends name again and again but no one shouts for you? It's like the audience do not care whether you're playing or not, regardless as a band or as soloist. They will just comment whether you're good or bad. One disadvantage of having friends for concert is that, whatever you play regardless of wrong notes, out of tune and stuff. They will say you played well. Well, one thing for sure they are perpetually good liars that keep your hearts happy though. Heekz. I might be wrong. Oh well, hope for the next time I perform, at least I know that someone I know will be there supporting me in one way or another. Back to the concert, it was a blast though. Having almost a full house audience was good though. The dressing room was small and it supposed to be a room for five or six people and twenty-plus guys are squeezing the room which is as big as my mum's and my room combined. Hakz, oh well. Things turned out fine. Solo was allright and I saw Mr Anthony Chew. Hakz, left hander conductor. I think left-hander people are cool! During the concert, I experienced a supernatural thing at the backstage though. It was like I was walking along the dark backstage when I could see nothing. It was damn dark and it seem that the end of the stage got further and further. I tiptoe-d and ran to the other end. I felt some presence of supernatural things just right beside me. Oh well, maybe it's me. Just a feeling.

I had a SUPER-OH-MY-GOSH-WHAT-THE-TOOT weird dream the other night. Shan't explain further. Samuel only knows about it. Heeks.

OPINIONS OF LEFT HANDER PLS! TAG ME!

To wan, if my blog too long. Don't read la. Waste your time mah, hor?
To dedric. Happy NOW?! I'm FAT what!

I'm fat!
I miss you.
Hold my hand pls.

Bitch ME-

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Thursday, August 17, 2006,

Suddenly, I got the urge of blogging. I do not know why. Maybe too many thoughts running throught my mind.

Anyways, I do not know what to blog about. Maybe I shall blog about random things. For quite sometime already, I've been bloghopping from one to another and I really realise how small the world can be. People are seriously linked to one another through some method of which I do not know why. Anyways, saw quite a number of blog. Seriously, some people have been BITCHING too much. I'm not doing too much. I only open my bitching session when there's a need to, that's all. :))

Yesterday was suppose to have a study thingy with myownself. In the end, I did not. You know why? It's not because of I'm LAZY or anything, but because of the library being so NOISY with TEENAGE KIDS! I'm not kidding! I went inside and was kind of roaming around the library. TOO MANY of them! I can't stand it. Instead, I went out.

I went out with Nazreen, a band buddy though. I asked him whether he wanted to watch a movie and fortunately he wanted to watch MY SUPER-EX GIRLFRIEND. So, we did. Promised to be here by 2.30 and guess what? He came at 3.25pm! LUCKILY, I already bought the tickets for us. The cinema was not even packed at all! My row was only occupied by both of us. LOL! Anyways, the show was OKAY only, Other than the hillarious sexual scenes which young kids are not suppose to watch! Between 1-5, I will give it a 2.5 grade. Hakz, You guys should watch it though. I think it's good for those superman or superwoman WANNA-BE and also to those guys who "fantasise" WONDERWOMAN or SUPERWOMAN to be their HOT SEXAY GIRFRIEND! LOL!

After the movie and all crap, I realised one thing. Nazreen likes to go to the toilet! bladder problem I supposed! We had a lot of things to chat about though. Band, band and more band. Yarh, I think I knew him a little more. Anyways, this is a short post though. Thanks Nazreen for watching the movie with me allright boy! =)

Anyways, exam will commence tommorrow. ohmyutterlyGOSHNESSlaa! I'm so will be screwed by my results man. I don't really know how to do my complex number and stuffs. So, I'm like stunned! I need to study for the whole night I think. Paper will commence at 2pm tommorrow. Next will be on Monday I think. I do not wish to MUG no more but I HAVE to! Haiz. Oh well, I think poly life ain't just about having a typical normal poly life in fact, I think my life is not like a normal poly life though. I've always think that people who are in business school and FMS school are having life as a normal teenage polytechnic student as what we normally see in Tv. *No Offense* I mean, I think most of them are having a wonderful circle of friends, a nice and bubbly hot cca, Loads of projects and also hands-on experience plus, a WAVY love life, I think. Some of us may be given the role of a "Teenage Popular Icon", "The Problematic One", "The Suicidal One", "GEEK?", "Cool Cliques", "The Super Hot Sexay Icon", "The Super Adorable Nice One" and of course, "The Big Pai Kia's". This is what I imagine though. I mean I might be wrong though. Oh well, enough of this SHYT thing.

I'm missing the band now. I don't know why. It's just that the Concert Feeling and excitement still is inside me! OhmyutterlyGOSHNESSla! I still love the band. I love my buddies! I love my Clique! I love my mates! I love my HunnySt*RsEnsemble! totalyay-ness!

Random Facts:

ImissSwSYouth!
ImissHunnySt*RsEnsemble!
ImissTheM.I.Asociety!
ImissSsW!
ImissMyClassmates!
ImissMyMillenianBuddies*thoughsomeofthemareinNP*
ImissMyPanda!
ImissMyBuddies!
ImissMuggingForOlvl!
ImissFAUZIAH!
ImissMELISSALEO!*comebackfasterla*
ImissEveryone!
ImissMyJuniors!
and.
Iamsointoyounow. :))

To whom It may concern, thanks for meeting me yesterday and I hope we could meet some other day as well. Looking forward to it.
To Nazreen, thanks for watching movie with me okae! Like you said, it's fun to go out with you. Especially the bitching session! Another movie, another day!

Okay, Off to MUG!

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Tuesday, August 15, 2006,

Bitching Season Is Open!

I can't believe my ears! This few days, all I been listening to is people bitching about one another! I can't simply understand why they have to bitch so much though. (Look who's talking! HAHA!) Totally Oh-my-goshness, quite a recent events happen currently this august.

Oh, you guys wanna know what happened? What happened actually was that yesterday, before I go to school to meet my friends, I received a call from an UKNOWN stranger! This is what happened ;

Ring.. Ringg..
I picked up.

Me: Hello?
???: Err, is this Fifi?
Me: Arh..Sup?
???: Erm, I got ur number in a bus.
Me : *STUNNED* What the FUCK?!
?? : It says here if you want free sex, call this number.
Me: WHAT THE FUCK! WHO THE HELL?!
??: Nono, don't hang up on me. Are you gay?
Me: Excuse Me, Like NO!
??: Oh, please I'm desperate.
Me: BYEEEEE!!

I tell you!! He said it's written in BUS 157! I know it goes from BOON LAY all the way to TOA PAYOH. Whoever did it own up please! If I find who you are, I will not forgive you for the rest of my life! WHAT THE FREAKING FUCKED UP FUCK LOR! OhMyUtterlyGoshneess!

Been busy, more busy and more more more busy-er! Oh my Gosh!

Okay, that day on the Eve on our beloved Singapore's Birddae, Andra invited me to join the Magnies to watch our seniors perform for the National Day Musical. Well, everything turn out find till it happened. I myself was shocked but in the end proud of my beloved senior going on with the show though she bleed herself. Indeed proud!

Taken from Jasmines's blog;

"After seeing fellow magnie being so brave and went on with the show with her bloody nose. It made me ponder the entire night... what if it had happened on me. I lay on my bed, with xiaobahbah beside me watching dvd on my lappie... thinking real hard. And guess what the conclusion was? Tears will flow like a running tap; stunned for a moment and i'll be forcing myself to smile, i'm proud of you jannies"

I mean honestly I asked you people, how many people you know would do such a thing? Think more of the people around you rather than yourself. Usually, I think all those people who were injured during their item or stunts, will just let the whole world see what happened to them or they just run away from the show to prevent any any embarassment. But Jannies, she moved on, Contiuning her stunts as she knew without her, there will be no stunts, no show, no magnum. Like they say "There's no I in T.E.A.M.W.O.R.K". This is honestly true. Due to this event, I'm falling in love with Magnum Force much and much more than I usually do. The Magnies are proud of you Jannies! And forever will. A moment to be remembered.

Training was a little intensive last week due to the workshop that we had on the 12th August 2006. Dance routine was damn nice, of course choreograph but our beloved coach Lenny. The stunts too, being a base is finally getting the hang of it though I still want to be able to achieve my dream (but I have to lose my fats first, HAHA!) . Anyways, the workshop turned out very well. Quite a number of cheerleaders turned up. Innova Jc, Dunearn Sec, Chij Toa Payoh, Northbrooks, Warriors, City Harvest Church, NUS High School, Chong Boon, Methodist Girls School and More. But honestly I say, some of them are oh-so-adorable! I'm not kidding! Those Kids from Dunearn, coached by Redza, they were so adorable. Most of them were Sec 1 and 2's. Haha! Thought them the dance, Thought them the stunts, Thought them the Cheer and of course, during lunch bring them around the school. Hakz, so adorable.

Anyways, I rushed to school around 6.30am. Reached around 7 plus in the morning and GUESS WHAT?! Only a few people turned up punctually. Wasted my time but oh wells, I was not late in the end. Rather than getting punished. HAKZ! Anyways, the shirt we got was SUPERBLY-OH-MY-SHIT NICE! and Thanks to Jasmine and Committee for helping me though! THANKIEW! Finally, I got a shirt that I've been dying to wear for like ever since 2 weeks? or maybe more! Lol! We rehearsed the stunts and stuffs. And I got back my positions. Yarh! Thanks Lenny! Anyways, rehearsed and rehearsed till all of us got tired in the end. While waiting for them to register and stuff, we waited in the sports deck and i watched. Some of the Minahs and girls dressed wrongly. How could they come in denim skirts and jeans and mini skirts?! Oh my Gosh! I think that was SO the wrong thing to wear please! Okay, On with the show. Dance routine was SUPERB, stunts were AWESOME. Things turned out allrite in the end though. Yup, I want to get myself a LANDYARD! save Some for me PLEASE!! Okay, Pictures are up!

Okay, done with Magnum.

12th August 2006, PRESS START Commences at 7.30pm. The concert was allright total seats were about 300-400+ i think. Not a bad crowd but i guess quite a number of supporters for the members. During the soundcheck before the concert, the members were watching the anime video for the first time and guess what, Final Fantasy 10 was damn nice. I teared in the end. It was really beautiful when it shows true love. Aww, how can true love be true? Okay, that did not sound right. Anyways, took Pictures with the mates, buddies and of course my clique. I started to miss them though. Our ensemble was SUPERB. GOOD JOB GUYS! I thought we will screw up in the end but in the end. We did well. My Solos were allright. Ain't that bad. Joeven's solo was always good. Hakz, everything turned out well other than a little intonation problem. My section was very well done. Love you guys so much! and Mr Rasul, thanks for everything!
=)

To the new members of SwSYouth, It comes to realise that some of you might be taking a LONG leave due to big matters like GCE "N" or "O" Level. Nonetheless, it does not mean you do not have to leave the band. I supposed that you've enjoyed playing with the band and making new friends. After this concert itself, most of the main band guys who played in the youth band might not be coming to youth band anymore and all of us, for sure are hoping that you guys could continue the 5th generation of SwSYouth. So, I hope you guys do not leave the band and leave it under a big mess. As always, attendance after concert will be little as most of them leave the band and will never come back. I know of a few people who does that but why must it be YOU? You do not have to leave the band due to having hectic schedule. At least, it would be better if you would stay and play with us for at least twice a month. Losing a member is really heartaching. People know us from SwSYouth, not just a normal Cc band under the National Arts Council. Yes, I know some of the people there are not your type of people and being a member for almost two years, I understand how one felt. Being left out and not in the clique. It's a matter of whether you wish to be part of us or not. We do not mind anyone, even though you're weird or whatsoever. So, please. Dear friend/buddy, Don't leave this band. I myself do not wish to lose a friend nonetheless a buddy. Having a friend who come and go in a wink of an eye is not enough to know him or her. So, Please. Don't leave and leave the members with an empty chair, heartbroken. =)

Other than that, I have to MUG again! Don't wish to repeat any module please! I do not want to be in a different class. How awful is that! Gosh! MUG!!! Yes, other than that. Pictures are up! Go and see through my Links.

Searching for it all over again. =)

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Wednesday, August 09, 2006,

Okay!

NEW BLOGSKIN!!

ENJOY!!!

=))))))

SWSYOUTH WINDS.
"PRESS START"
12TH AUGUST 2006
7.30PM
ULU PANDAN CC.
$8.

MAGNUM FORCE CHEERLEADING WORKSHOP.
12TH AUGUST 2006.
9AM-5PM
NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC.
$5.

CTAWE
"BACK TO THE 60'S"
19TH AUGUST 2006
7.30PM
NANYANG GIRLS AUDITORIUM
$10

INTERESTED PARTIES CONTACT ME!

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